"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."

i forgot about my other accounts. took me 6 tries to get the right login-password combo here. i super-suck.

 

ch-ch-check me out now on my new one. "new" even though it's not "new" really.

 

 

but it's

 

almost23 

i wanna see how you move it. show me how you do it, do it.

yes, rihanna is hot. no shit.

 

i am listening to her to work out. i'd say that's motivation, right?! lol. if i do this long enough, i'll have perfect legs, arms, skin tone, and an adorable hair style. hahahha.

WELL i'm gonna go finish the work-out exercize, shit thing that i feel is doing nothing for me...

UNTIL NEXT TIME,
i'll be doing this same thing, working, reading the da vinci code--- STILL doing some homework, and going to class. pray for me.lol.

 

and friday=zoooooo day!!! WHOOP WHOOP

 

watching Sunset Tan. this chic brought in her daughter. I'm giving her an age range somehwere between 7 and 10. and she wanted her to be tan. for school pictures. so she spent 1300 dolla. fuckin stupid as hell. whatever. stupid. thank God SIenna won't ever want me to spent thirteen hundred damn dollars on a fuckign fake tan. she won't even need make-up. she's gawgus ALLLLREADY.
ANYWAY. i'm going to go.
I'm bored. I"m tired. I'm stressing.

I'm alive!!!

 

 

i just dont use this account.

 

ever.

 

i didnt even know if it still existed.

 

 

but it DOES!

 

my baby is getting sooo old right now.

[15 monthers already]- daaaang.

 

 

 

still working. still going to school. still being a mommy. still single.

 

 

life is pretty swell.

philosophically... when i'm engaged, i'll feel no guilt. i will feel no feelings of doing wrong. or i won't be engaged. i will feel simply and plainly in love. at peace. i will be ready. i will not want any day to go by without being in that relationship for the rest of my life. i will love getting old with that person and making a life together. building a future. making a family. i will make it fun and exciting. treasure the great moments and work at making them better. i will understand the faults and i will accept the fights. i will work stuff out and i will try to better myself to better him.i will expect no more or no less. i will be completely trustworthy and i will put all trust in him. there will be respect oozing out of our ears. at night we'll be happy to be together in the morning we'll be happy too. i will be willing to accept our differences. we'll respect our space. we'll be two separate people but one in the same. it'll be what marriage was meant to be. it'll be bound together forever like God intended. There will be no guilt. There will be no shame. There will be no regret. THAT is what my marriage will be. if it's not that, it will not happen. to all you married couples out tehre... dont critique me. for all you in relationships dont. for all you singles out there dont. i just want to express my thoughts on it. based upon some new information thrown at me, NAY. torpedoed at me. hahahhahaha...

and, if i do say so myself, i'm handling this information QUITE well for what i'm ACTUALLY feeling inside of me right now. so KUDOS to myself. i do not wish to speak about it right now or ever. it may just f'k up a relationship that is barely there anyway. must appreciate what little time we have left...

if i could invent this, i would. if it were possible, i'd do it. congratufuckinglations? no. really, though. congratulations.

talk about a slacker!!! haha.

things are goin' alright here i suppose.
.

With that said i think i'm gonna go. sienna's trying to type and... that's never a good thing.

SO LATA!

it's weird how i have phases with updating which blog of mine. first, i did the starxedlover one. then i got into updating this one. then i'm back with updating starxedlover daily or like tridaily. haha.
i seem to forget about this one.
but who knows, soon i may get in the habit of slappin' my shit on this one. OH GOSH.
sienna's in the other room sleeping. and i'm in here "doing my western civ. 2 assignment". i should be doing it. so i can study for my test in developmental psychology. but i'm not doing the assignment. so i'm not going ot study. so ... gosh. i just can't concentrate. this weekend will be one study-filled weekend. yupp.

Ashley Marie

p.s. might (hopefully) go to a Brand-New Heroes concert on Saturday. i need to find a babysitter for Sienna though. ehhhhh weird. k bye

i should be getting ready for church....... BUT i'm not lol.
sienna's in the other room sleeping... SO cute!
i think my sister's gonna watch her tonight, which is gonna be amazing! and i'm totally thrilled- yahoo.
My aunt and uncle are on their way pretty soon and should be here in two hours, and so.. right about when we get back from church they'll be here. and my cousins are adorable and i'm super stoked.

IM ALSO super stoked to be able to wear clothes again. i'm loving it. i change all the time. i wear like 3 outfits a day... just like back at northwest, only it's amazingER here, because i have only been able to wear preggo clothes for QUITE a while now. and i feel great. it was the best like 9-hour diet in the world to have a babay muahaha. no i do still have weight to lose, trust me, BUT it's great!
and it's nice when people are like "wow... ashley. wow you look GREAT! i mean wow. you just went RIGHT back to your normal size that's so nice. you look great." lol and i'm just like *BLUSH*"thank you..." hehe. and inside i'm like. "IM TOTALLY FEELIG YOU I MEAN I AM FEELING AMAZINGLY HOT RIGHT NOW..." haha.
Makes me wanna go make out! lol jk. i mean i'm half hoking. sometimes i do feel like that but sometimes i dont lol. depends. usually i donno i dono where i'm going with this. OKAY i'll shut up.

ahhhhh sienna.

OK WELL i'm gonna go get ready for church. lata gatas

50 of the most random things you prob. never needed to know about someone. REPOST WITH YOUR ANSWERS.

1. Your name spelled backwards?
Yelhsa

2. Last incoming call on your phone?
my mother lol.

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? 
i dont even recall... probably aim? which was quite a while ago. 

4. What's your favorite restaurant?
right now i could go for some fazolis (spelling?).

5. Last time you swam in a pool? 
shoot, i don't even know!... yes i do, in august in minnesota on vacation- NO ONE around  

7. How many kids do you want? 
i like 5. 

8. Type of music you dislike most? 
probably like ummm yeah i don't know. 

10. Do you have cable? 
totally JUST got it. 

11. Ever have a crush on someone that is at least 10 years older then you? 
celebrities, yes. real life, nope. 

12. Ever made a prank phone call? 
lol... back in the day i'm sure i made a couple, maybe? 

13. Closest friend? 
Xavier, Manda, or Julie

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? 
yes I would. or is this a this or that question? 

15. Furthest place you ever traveled? 
Canada(Toronto)

16. Do you have a garden? 
My mother does... i do not. 

17. What's your favorite comic strip? 
errr... whatever 

18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? 
i think so, but they might accidentally come in the wrong order. nah, i think i got it down pretty good. 

19. Bath or Shower, morning or night? 
bath definately, showers are for the birds lol?, and ummm i donno depends on the event 

20. Best movie you've seen in the past month? 
oh, shoot, i donno. maybe "Rumor has it" or... yeah i don't know, we'll go with that one 

21. Favorite pizza toppings? 
oh gosh, canadian bacon and mushroom! 

22.Chips or Popcorn? 
popcorn- with butter! 

24. What did ur last text message in your inbox say? 
"Can you not get into msn?" 

26. Orange Juice or apple? 
orange please. 

27. Who were the last people you went out to dinner with?
i went to BREAKFAST with amanda

28. What did the last text message that u sent say? 
"no i'm there now... after restarting the computer a few times" 

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
summer time.

31. Have you ever won a trophy? 
back in the day. 

32. Are you a good cook? 
if you're asking me to cook a jack's original frozen pizza, yeah- i'm not too bad, much more than that, i'd recommend asking someone else to cook it for ya  

33. Do you know how to pump gas?
let's hope i'm pumping it right

35. Sprite or 7-Up ?
Sprite

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
yes ma'am.

37. Last thing you ate? 
a banana  

38. Ever thrown up in public place? 
at school.... yup. it was ALMOST fun. 

39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love? 
true love to a millionaire  

40. Do you believe in love at first sight? 
sure i do. 

41. Can ex's be just friends? 
yep

42. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
oh i don't know... i dont recall visiting anyone in the hospital. well, my mom-7 years ago- when my little brother was born..

44. Who was the last person who you called? 
xavier- no answer. 

46. What was the name of your first pet? 
i dont know what our bird's name was, but one of our first cats was "Sidewinder" (dont remember the cat), but the first pet i REMEMBER was our cat, Whiskers. 

47. Who was the second to last person to call you?
Julie!!! lol

48. Is there anything going on this weekend? 
the weekend is over, but next weekend who knows, maybe i'll be taking pictures of my new little baby!!!!!!!! lol or maybe i'll be trying to push her out lol 

49. What are you doing tonight? 
I went to a movie tonight, now i'm suffering from insomnia. 

50. What do you think about most?
Xavier, my baby, Northwest, losing weight, shopping, and making out with someone.

well, fellas and felettes,

3 weeks and 3 days TOPS until my baby is in my arms. =D.

she's due in 2 weeks and 3 days... BUT they will enduce (spelling?) if I haven't had her by one week after the due date.

SOOO... getting excited. getting nervous. getting scared. getting happy. getting all of the above!

WELL, I should go now.. Goodlater.
Ash